random self portraits

EATING!

Here's me about to EAT a mexican baked potato at Follow Your Heart restaurant. I am actually starting to eat soft and medium soft things...noodles, vegetable soup, salmon, even a chicken breast tonite. Who to needs botox?

I don't look like myself

I don't really recognize my face. I am kind of disappointed because I don't think I look very natural. I'm kind of lopsided and I am not sure if I will look much better when the swelling goes down. Yesterday I had the arch bars taken off so my mouth isn't wired shut anymore. Dr. Li said that I can chew normally in 6 months but I can eat soft foods such as over cooked pasta and fish. He also made it clear that he wants his patients to be happy and he would consider doing more surgery on my chin if I think it is too long. I am upset that I feel like a freak because my face seems narrower and longer than before. And the cuteness of my flat nose doesn't look as good now that my big lips are shrinking. I can accept looking quirky and I am happy with some aspects like my profile. Last night I slept with my mouth open and woke up with a very dry mouth. I hope I did not snore now that my mouth is not wired shut. I wore glasses for my "Aunt Connie" character 2 nights ago for my "Ookie Cookie" movie premiere. They dug deep into the bridge of my nose leaving a hole which luckily faded after about 12 hours. Dr. Li said it will harden up eventually. I feel like face transplant lady a bit. The face pic above is highly touched up. It is for the badge I will wear at the Frameline film festival towards the end of June in San Francisco.

Ethnicity Switch?

• Here is a site with bad tattoos: http://www.badtattoos.com/tattoos/tattoos_10856.html These tattoos are really depressing.
  
• I have been meeting with tattoo artists for consultations. I've learned that a lot of my ideas may not wear so well over time because of the ink fading, blurring and bleeding.
  
• Wednesday, May 27th my movie, OOKIE COOKIE, is playing at the Egyptian Theater. I will be dressed as Aunt Connie, hand out crafts and cookies, and answer questions.
• At the end of June I will probably be going to San Francisco and Tel Aviv with OOKIE to present it in film festivals. I wonder how my new face will be read in Israel.
• My arch bars come off on Thursday, May 28th in Palo Alto.
• My swelling is going down a lot. I fear I may lose my smooth, wide, flat nose. My chin and upper palate are the most numb.
  
• People are making interesting comments:

1. You definitely don't have a Jewish nose anymore
2. You look more Asian or mulatto now.
3. You look Mexican, Cuban, or Puerto Rican.
4. Your face is more oblong now.
5. you have black eyes.
6. Are your lips going to stay that big? They are very attractive.
7. You look like a thug.
8. You look like a Jewish gangster.
9. They made your nose crooked.
10. You are really skinny.
11. You look really healthy.
12. You look fit.

• Anna made me brown rice and chicken soup with chicken breast in blender. It was great. I am going to have to try to start cooking real foods and blending instead of canned.
• I have been eating tons of ice cream. I really must stop though I don't seem to be gaining weight. My scale says I weigh 150, which is my lowest adult weight.
  
• I ran out of all of my protein powders at the same time and have ordered a bunch online.
• A couple nights ago I ate a can of chicken which is equal to 6 servings and had tons of sodium. I got super constipated because I stopped drinking water and replaced it with shakes and soups.
• blended lentil soup gave me gas for hours and hours.
• Email quote from Dr. Li in regards to my diet when the arch bars come off: "Soft food-fish, eggs and over cooked pasta for 6 to 8 weeks then chicken and bread for another few weeks. Unrestricted chewing probably 5 to 6 months."
• I have started light exercise to get back into top shape.
• I have decided I look like Lionel Richie.
• I want to grow my hair like my hottie hero, Andy Samberg.
  

Recipe, latest photo, tattoo ideas, 2 weeks til arch bars come off!

I took the yellow background picture today after work because my shirt matched and the sun was just right. If i tilt my head up I look good. If I tilt down I still have extra long narrow face.

The tattoo picture is from my photo shoot where I was pretending to be gang member. I really like those black drawn on tattoos and may decide to get only black tattoos instead of the colorful ones I originally thought about. I have been having consultations with tattoo parlours in order to find the best places.

My lower arch bar is loose and wiggly but Dr. Li said no problem. I have only 2 weeks til I fly back to get my mouth unwired.

I have favorite savory recipe:
Mashed potatoes (boxed)
can of tuna, salmon, or chicken
fresh squeezed carrot, tomato, yam, cabbage juice (or any vegetable juice)
one package miso soup
tablespoon apple cider vinegar

Blend til smooth and drink warm
Yummy proteiny and carbys and veges

I apologize to anyone who has smelled my breath because, apparently, it sucks. Last night when switching out my rubber bands I opened just wide enough to scrape me tongue with the water pik tongue attachment. I will need oh so much more cleaning once these wires come off. I will say I still am loving the diet. It's so easy to pull out protein powder and juice or water and just shake it at work. It's quick, easy to clean up, and is really good on my digestion.

Today I ate Ice Cream with a Spoon!

Today, after shaving my face, I discovered who my real parents must be: Rodney Bingenheimer and Jocelyn Wildenstein.

I also ate my favorite ice cream with a spoon because it had melted a bit: Julie's Moca Java.
It got all over my face and the floor but I slurped that thing down!

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday was my halfway point of wires on my mouth. Just 2 and a half more weeks and they come off! I am so excited. I worked myself to death yesterday at work and crawled out of my car to take a nap, have a 12 hour migraine/tension headache, and sleep 9 hours. I took this picture yesterday and am happy I look somewhat normal again. I just feel handicapped due to the inability to speak and my weakness.

Today I bought and bid on a bunch of Raggedy Ann stuff on ebay as inspiration for my paintings and possible tattoo!

Last night I had a dream that I was going to be in a childrens beauty pageant in drag, singing "It's Raining on Prom Night" from Grease.

Today I changed my 4 rubber bands for the first time using a little do-hickey. They need to be changed every other day because they loosen.